This one, for me, took a lot of thought. Maybe because I could have put my parents or my friends or my favourite teddy etc. but I wanted to put something a little different.
I suffer from serious self body image issues. I am not exactly the skinniest person but I am not huge either. I nearly always feel like people are judging me for what I look like when in reality, people do not really care.
The negative thoughts I think about myself stopped me climbing completely. I work at a climbing wall and I have worked there over 2 years. I get to climb for free, so I should be an expert now right? Wrong! Partly because I am there all the time for work and partly because of my self body image issues I rarely climb. The rare occasion someone gets me to climb, I stick to top rope climbing as much as possible and do not even attempt a lead climb because I know it petrifies me (no idea why, just a psychological thing I need to get used to!)
However, today I climbed with my colleague/friend Mike and he is so unjudgemental and really helps me through the negative thoughts, having suffered from mental health issues before. I achieved some hard top ropes and even a few lead climbs! I was over the moon with myself and I just love the picture Mike took of me after I completed the lead climb. It is ‘beloved’! THIS GIRL CAN!
I have already planned to go climbing again on Friday and hopefully I will be able to keep it up and will be able to fall in love with climbing all over again!